Hello my loves,
Today I thought I would do a little confession blog.
Recently, I’ve noticed that there’s a big part of me that I’ve been scared to show the world. Being a Gemini, they’re many different sides to me (haha), and I tend to only show the happy, excited side.
Am I ashamed of the other sides? No. But I definitely fear other peoples reactions if I were to show all of my sides. I fear how they might see me and the lack of love that might come with their judgements. No matter how hard I work on myself, sometimes that fear comes creeping back in. I suppose it will be something I will be working through for a very long time.
So today, I’m going to take a deep breath, I’m going to practice what I preach, and share this big part of me that you might not know. This is for me as much as it is for you…as I believe that to truly move forward, one must embrace and love all the sides of themselves.
I don’t want to be afraid anymore and so Ive decided to set my soul free and take the weight off of my heart.
I want you to know that I’m a very spiritual person. I write and speak a lot about the “Law of Attraction” and the different laws of the universe and I never go into too much detail as I have previously been afraid of people judging me for it. Rhonda Byrnes book “The Secret”, changed my life 9 years ago and I believe that all of the blessings and unfortunate things that have happened to me, are 100% because I attracted them into my life. I’m also extremely intuitive and I identify as an empath – “An empath is when you’re affected by other people’s energies, and have an innate ability to intuitively feel and perceive others. Your life is unconsciously influenced by others’ desires, wishes, thoughts, and moods.” – to read more, click on this link.
In the past, I had many days where I couldn’t function properly because peoples opinions and emotions would be too hard on my heart. I would eat my feelings and avoid the world because I didn’t know how to deal with all of these emotions. Eventually I realized that when I was alone, I was usually very happy. Especially when I started changing my diet, I found myself able to ignore the negativity better and work on me.
Finding people like Doreen Virtue, my aunty Virgina, and all the wonderful authors of the self-help books I devoured, really helped me understand that they’re many people like me out there and I’m certainly not alone.
I started taking classes to work on my intuitiveness and I found that the more I practiced, the better I got (funny how that happens :P). I work with these cards called Angel Cards and I’m telling you this now, because I want to do a post about the kind of Love that Angel cards have brought me. They’re always dead on to giving you messages that are exactly what you need and you always feel extremely guided and loved when you get these messages. I use to be very afraid of ghosts and tarot cards but when I discovered ‘Angel Cards’ – I knew in my heart that they came from a place of love. If you watch Doreen Virtue on youtube (She’s the creator of these cards), then you will see what I mean.
Now I am in no way preaching my beliefs. I grew up Catholic and I have always been interested in learning about different religions and the religion that I decided that resonated with me, was the religion of Love. I believe in any and all things that come with love and from a place of love. I think that everyone is entitled to their beliefs and from what I have understood, almost every religion has one common goal anyway, to spread love and to have compassion.
Anyways guys, I think I’m going to conclude this blog before it becomes a novel lol. I feel much better now that I’ve shared that and I hope that whatever your beliefs are, you will be so kind as to accept and love mine regardless if it goes against yours. I felt it was necessary before we moved forward, that you’re aware of the authentic me, and now I feel that we may have gotten better acquainted.
Is there anything that you might want to get off of your chest? Is there a side of you that you want to share with the world but you might be afraid for others to see? If you want to share it with me, you can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I promise to have an open mind and I promise to help give you the courage to share it with your peers.
On a last note, I’m starting a “My Journey” section where I’m going to blog about the good days and the bad. I want to take you deeper into my life and show you what I’m doing on a weekly basis to love myself. I think it’s important to take you along with me so then you can see my progress every step of the way. I hope it will also be an inspiration to you when times may get tough.