I haven’t done this in a while. I use to blog all the time and somehow I think between being pulled into an I
I had my 29th birthday this week. Wow. 29 years old. 10 years ago I was 19 and living a much different life then I am now. Now, in chapter 29, Melissa lives a very colorful life filled with goals, dreams and a prince. The story is filled with glorious technicolor now, as we see our heroine actualize her dreams. As we see her slowly grasping what it means to be alive.
Last year I created The NamaSLAY Podcast. The podcast has connected me to so many beautiful souls and I have learned a lot about myself since creating it. I have been thinking a lot about the show for the last few weeks and I think I want to change it up. I feel out of touch with it. Perhaps its because I need to put more me into it. It was always an extension of this blog…a place where I can share ideas on self-improvement. Where I can ask questions and learn as much as I can. But what’s the point of learning if you don’t apply what you learn. Perhaps I need to start sharing what goals I’m going to be working on.
What do I want out of all of this? Why am I even doing this?
What I want is to be a successful actress. That’s all I’ve ever wanted. But I’ve been too afraid to do it. So I’m learning all of this because I’m hoping to find a solution that will click and I will just become one. But life doesn’t work like that. What I want will take effort and pain and I have to learn to be ok with the growing pains. Just like when you go to the gym and you work out with the weights and your muscles are sore for the next few days…that’s how I need to see all of life. Think of everything like pushing yourself to lift the weights and then dealing with the growing pains…it’s all painful but it leads to the result we want.
I heard that analogy this week and that made a lot of sense to me. Hopefully, whoever reads this will understand what I’m saying. Truthfully, I’m a little hungover from my birthday so I don’t feel like editing. Future me, don’t be mad at me for not being a great writer when I’m currently choosing to not edit my own work. Even though I’m kinda choosing this to be funny but whatever…I guess I would choose to be a comedian over being a great writer any day. Just learned something new about my priorities.
So I think these last two months I have been in a bit of a limbo…because I know what I need to do next. I know that I need to just reach out to the agents. I have to edit my demo, send it off and go. There’s nothing left to do… I’ve taken the acting class that I thought I needed to take and all that showed me was that classes are very expensive and most of the learning process involves practicing on
New belief: I have a glorious story and a purpose to inspire. I will achieve my wildest dreams and I will motivate others.
If you made it to the end of this blog, congrats. You’re an awesome human who gives me hope that blogs still have some life left. But even if no one reads this, this is for me and that’s all that matters.
So future Mel…go now and take that next step. Keep bringing color to your life by slaying at your goals. Go get em lion.